Portland And Also Everywhere Else (split with Izzy and the Chimera)

by She/Her/Hers

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Izzy and the Chimera is Izzy Unger-Weiss
She/Her/Hers is Emma Grrrl

This was a super last minute idea, thrown together when I stayed with Izzy for a few days in Portland. My songs were recorded in a few hours and they were all written in the last 2 weeks or so.

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released November 29, 2015

Recorded and mixed at The Aerie House in Portland, OR by Izzy Unger-Weiss

Album cover: Photo by Misa Oliver, Design by Izzy Unger-Weiss

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Track Name: Just A Guest Here (Pessimism)
I wake up in your bed, in your home, in your town
I am really quite the pessimist these days
and if tonight I stay here
tomorrow I might run away
Don’t blame yourself, there’s nothing anyone could do to make me stay

Cuz I’ve got problems, I’ve got problems
keeping myself in one place
you have a life in this town
I have a life moving around
I’ve got problems, I’ve got problems, I’ve got problems
I am really quite the pessimist these days

I’ll move along, I’ll run away
There’s nothing I can say
I’ll build you up and let you down
It’s fucked but I don’t know how to change
One day you’ll wake up and I’ll be gone
Cuz with me nothing lasts that long

I fall asleep and I can hear
the sound of your heart beating near
mine beats a little bit off tempo
if you take a part of yourself
and share it with somebody else
you’d better make goddamn sure that they deserve it

Cuz I’ve got problems, I’ve got problems
loving anybody else
put your trust in me and I will always let you down
I’ve got problems, I’ve got problems, I’ve got problems
I am really quite the pessimist these days

I’ll move along, I’ll run away
There’s nothing I can say
I’ll build you up and let you down
It’s fucked but I don’t know how to change
One day you’ll wake up and I’ll be gone
Cuz with me nothing lasts that long

I wake up in your bed, in your home, in your life
and I am really just a guest here
and I’ve hear that relationships take work
but I’m unemployed
and I am really quite the pessimist these days
Track Name: Something Worth Staying For (Optimism)
There’s nothing wrong with being pessimistic sometimes
but I can’t feel this way for all of my life
there’s nothing wrong with running away
but if I find something worth staying for
I hope I’ll stay
and I’ll stay
if that’s okay with you

It’s probably a bad idea to go jumping in the deep end
but here I am and I’m in the deep end
so I’ll hold my breath ‘til I sink or swim
I might end up broken but I think it’s worth the risk

I said I’d never write a love song
but singing sad songs all the time is kind of exhausting
so I guess this is a love song
cherish it cuz it doesn’t happen often

I’ve spent the last few months alone but not lonely
I don’t need anyone to make me happy
I thought my crushes would keep me warm throught the winter
if it gets too cold I’ve got blankets and a sweater
but you warm me from the inside, yes you do
so I’ll stay
until I’ve seen this through

If there’s one thing that I’ve found, traveling around
It’s that all cities are beautiful, it just depends on who you know
and I’ve made a million friends
but there’s noone like you anywhere else that I’ve been
I’m scared and I don’t know what to do
but I’ll stay
until I’ve seen this through

I said I’d never write a love song
but singing sad songs all the time is kind of exhausting
so I guess this is a love song
cherish it cuz it doesn’t happen often
cherish it cuz it doesn’t happen often
and I’ll cherish you cuz I don’t feel this way often
Track Name: Musical Cities
lets play pretend, tell me you’re jealous of the way that I live
and I’ll be the idealist, as if the things that I wanted are the things that I did
like 11,000 miles in four months was a tour not just running away
like if I really wanted to, I could be a functional human being

like I could find a job, cuz honestly who would hire me
like I could make her happy, how stupid would I have to be to believe that?

Everyone seems like they’re walking in a straight line
I’m just playing musical cities by myself
pretending this could ever be a success
Everyone seems like they’re walking in a straight line
I’m just playing musical cities by myself
deluded into believing that
I could ever “make it”

Let's start a trend, where everyone’s honest with everyone else
to tell you the truth, if I could sell out that’s what I’d do
I don’t wanna be rich but it would be nice to have some funds in the bank
if music is all the I’m good at, is it so awful to wanna get paid?

when it seems like the only alternative is washing dishes for minimum wage
is it so terrible to wanna play on a slightly bigger stage?

Everyone seems like they’re walking in a straight line
I’m just playing musical cities by myself
pretending this could ever be a success
Everyone seems like they’re walking in a straight line
I’m just playing musical cities by myself
deluded into believing that
I could ever “make it”

and these songs that I’ve written
they aren’t catchy enough and I’m not clever enough
and this voice I’ve been given
it’s not pretty enough and I’m not pretty enough
to ever be on your radio or your T.V

Everyone seems like they’re walking in a straight line
I’m just playing musical cities by myself
pretending this could ever be a success
Everyone seems like they’re walking in a straight line
I’m just playing musical cities by myself
deluded into believing that
I could ever “make it”

Everyone seems like they’re walking in a straight line
I’m just playing musical cities by myself
this could never be sustainable but I don’t know anything else
Everyone seems like they’re walking in a straight line
I’m just playing musical cities by myself
and when the music stops will I have anything else?
Track Name: Izzy and the Chimera - Blessings (Not Disguised)
Welcome back to town again
My big sister, my dear friend
It’s been a long time since I’ve seen you
I’m smiling so hard I can barely greet you

I found myself a place to stay
In the time you’ve been away
We’ve both fallen in love again
We’ve both lost the same shitty friends

Play your new songs for me
In the park across the street
With only the bugs to hear us
But that’s ok with me

Your voice still almost makes me cry
Ever since you said goodbye
Before you left last time
Seeing you is such a blessing
And for once
It’s not a blessing in disguise

The last time that we were together
And this I quite clearly remember
You said you’d never settle down
You’d always be moving around

And I thought I’d never fall in love
I’d always be alone and such
And I was oh so sure
But how wrong we both were

Play your new songs for me
In the park across the street
With only the bugs to hear us
But that’s ok with me

Your voice still almost makes me cry
Ever since you said goodbye
Before you left last time
Seeing you is such a blessing
And for once
It’s not a blessing in disguise
Track Name: Izzy and the Chimera - Unburdened
You say you’re worried you’re a burden
I wanna tell you that I’m certain
You could never be too much
Because I love you so damn much

I can’t take all your pain away
I wish I could, I want to say
You’re such a beautiful person
And of this I’m very certain

Cuz I know what it’s like to feel like shit
Like the world would be better without you in it
I know the feeling of being alone
Broken and without a home

But I haven’t felt like I want to die
Since the first time I looked in your eyes
You make me feel so beautiful
And I just wanna do the same for you

This isn’t something I expected
That I’d ever feel so connected
To another living person
Who didn’t treat me like a burden

Cuz no one deserves to feel that way
No matter the weight of their pain
Especially not someone like you
And I am certain this is true

Cuz I know what it’s like to feel like shit
Like the world would be better without you in it
I know the feeling of being alone
Broken and without a home

But I haven’t felt like I want to die
Since the first time I looked in your eyes
You make me feel so beautiful
And I just wanna do the same for you
Track Name: Izzy and the Chimera - Sunshine (Acoustic Version)
Sun rises over downtown
There’s so much on my mind
You’re all strangers to me
and yet you’ve been so kind

It makes me think that maybe
The aching in my soul
Could be soothed by friendship
I might someday be whole

And I don’t think I’m worthy
To feel the sunshine
But I feel myself growing
Towards the sunshine

And even when the sky
Is filled with rain
In some small place in my heart
The sunshine still remains

You’ve let me into your lives
You know my stories, I know yours
Try to tell mine calmly
But in my head I’m screaming myself hoarse

And even though I’m scared
You’ll leave me before long
That fear is gone for just a moment
In the light of dawn

And I don’t think I’m worthy
To feel the sunshine
But I feel myself growing
Towards the sunshine

And even when the sky
Is filled with rain
In some small place in my heart
The sunshine still remains